So...I'm finally almost out of that hole! After so long, my sleepless nights and "mons always lost" days are almost over. I've been workin' on myself lately. It takes me a while to get myself back together but I know that I will reach that point when everyone who had hurt me and taken me forgranted won't matter. I'm almost there, wait and see...

And so, the usual Monica Louise. I have to have a new look. It helps me feel good and reminds me of my worth. Something I've learned from one of my best friends, Shaira. A make-over! I've decided to go through one again last month. I think I do this every 6 months! Haha! But it's cool, I feel much better....physically, mentally, and...emotionally, almost there! I dyed my hair jet black and I'm now wearing blue contacts! I pretty much got back into shape since I have more time now to dance and go to the gym. It's a fresh start again....

Recent Picture: Funny, I somehow am reminded of Esmeralda (Hunchback of Notre Damne). I think I have a picture of her with the same look.

What's new? Well, I'm done with school! I'm glad that I finished college on time and despite that my parents aren't here, I made them proud. Being able to be Dean's Lister and at the same time a varsity player for the school's women's football team was quite tough. Lost a lot of weight and time for myself then coz there was heavy training everyday! Waking up 4AM everyday for 3 straight years and running for 5 hours wasn't easy. Discipline and hard work was needed. Of course, dedication is part of it. I'm proud of myself....I was able to balance my school and my extra-curicular activities (A BUNCH OF 'EM!).

So, here I am on vacation. taking my sweet time before I start working. I don't plan to take a long break though! I don't like not doing anything. Hehe! In the meantime, I am busy doing freelance work, bellydancing, and surfing! I miss wakeboarding though, and all the memories I have with that place! Mahn........... I know I'll be back there soon!

So, I guess I'll be blogging quite often now since I actually have time to... Not unless I'm not in the mood! Hehe.... A lot has happened and a lot has changed in my life. Both good and bad. I'm taking it all in as God's blessings. I believe, it has molded me on becoming much of a better person. I'm not saying that I'm not, actually I already am but I can say I'm much stronger now. I'm finding myself back...the "MONS" that I really am...HAPPY-GO-LUCKY-PERSON! No more drama's this time! The time that I was in pain, I've realized that if others can't seem to appreciate who I am and know my worth in their life, then it's not my problem to deal with anymore. One thing's for sure though, it will hit them someday and will think of me.

It's been so long, I hope my mom will be able to come home this month! It's been almost 2 years since I last saw her. Miss her....Wanna hug her and feel that I belong somewhere in this world! Anyways, runnin' out of things to say........Hmm.....I smell food, till my next post! God bless!